I started off 2018 on a real high, determined to make it the best year yet, make it ‘the year’ as I kept telling everyone until they were sick of talking to me. Things have certainly come my way to test that theory but I keep on bouncing back, and for that I am endlessly proud of myself. I have worked so hard on myself this year and I’m really starting to see the benefits. It’s a practice, an endless process, and it really is quite wonderful.
Last year I started working with Jody Shield and her team and became a founding member of TribeTonic, an amazing guidance, healing and spiritual support system of mentoring, live sessions and endless support. The tag line is ‘get your spiritual six pack’ and I can honestly say, with a lot of help from Jody and Jeanine (Gasser) I am well on my way there. This year I have put a real focus on healing sessions, meditations and being open to what the Universe has in store for me. It’s helped me see the positive in every situation by reminding myself I’ve got through things before, and will do so again. As Jody always says, you are not your mind, and always be in your ‘yes’.
It’s interesting how I’ve recently realised that as a child I was actually quite spiritual, but as a teenager, trying to be cool (not that I ever got anywhere near) I dropped it all in favour of things slightly more acceptable for a kid in the late 90’s. From about the age of ten onwards I developed a strong interest in crystal healing, reiki and aromatherapy. I had my own little collection of stones and oils and an array of books my mom’s sister passed on to me. I had meditation cassette tapes and often listened to them on a Sunday afternoon before the school night blues set in. Then life got in the way and it all gradually fizzled out.
As the years have gone on I’ve continued to feel a spiritual calling but I wasn’t sure what it was, I exploring religion a little but realised that while I do have certain beliefs, it’s not quite the right fit for me. Then I read Jen Sincero’s You Are A Badass. I’d always been a little put off by this book as the first page mentions God, The Universe, Mother Earth etc etc but get beyond that first page and the book opens you up to a whole new world. One you are already living in but didn’t quite notice. After seeing her speak at Future Shapers Live I knew it was time to get over my awkward embarrassed phase of feeling but not being spiritual and just get on with it. I’ve never really bothered what people think about my eccentric ways before and I decided it wasn’t time to start now.
I came across Jody Shield’s book, Life Tonic in a magazine and got my hands on a copy. I struggled a little with reading it (chronic fatigue and brain fog will do that) so I stepped out of my comfort zone a little and listened to the audio book. Then when the Tribe came along it just felt right, so I signed right up. And I have to say it’s one of the best things I’ve done in a long time.
Mentoring from Jody and Jeanine has lead me to read/listen to a rather different selection of books than in previous years. My new favourite genre of books are spiritual self help. I’ve recently finished Light Is The New Black by Rebecca Campbell. A beautiful selection of poems, prayer, journal prompts and insight into the spiritual world. A calming and peaceful read this is definitely one I’ll be returning to time and time again. Currently on my audible playlist is Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert who has the most soothing voice I’ve heard. I’m so glad I chose to listen to this on audio book as I don’t think I would have felt the same effects reading it on paper. Even if you aren’t in touch, or haven’t got, a spiritual side I’d definitely recommend both of these books as they create an escape from the chaotic non stop world we live in today.
As I’ve got back in touch with my spiritual side, rediscovering who I am, I have slowly grown my collection of crystals, guided meditations, yoga flows and breathing exercises, all of which are extremely helpful when it comes to living life with both physical and mental health issues. I also journal more regularly too.
I remember endless journalling starting around the age of nineteen when I was training to be a nurse. Each night, or morning depending on my shifts, I’d write sides and sides of A4 about my innermost feelings, journals which I still have to this day. Again, it’s something that stopped, this time around the time I became unwell at twenty three. My thoughts all just felt too overwhelming and it was easier to bottle them up and file them away as opposed to getting them on paper. I’ve since dabbled with journalling but 2018 has proven to be a year of both insight and relief by getting things down on the page. I have a beautiful hand crafted leather bound journal that I take everywhere with me and is more like my 2018 Workbook than just a journal.
As I mentioned above, discovering and working with everything the spiritual ‘you’ has to offer is a practice, it never ends, and it never fails to surprise and delight. It’s helping me cope with chronic illness, change and the stress that comes with every day life. I have a new morning routine which consists of meditation and writing before work and I try and do the same before bed. I’ll add some relaxing oils to my burner and set aside half an hour for myself, to be undisturbed, no phone calls, emails or social media, just me and everything that I am.
So don’t turn your nose up at spirituality, you just never know what you might discover, after all now is as good a time as any to try…